Friday, April 24, 2009

The story continues!

Sorry about the time relapse in my story about Haiti. I hope you will continue to check back. Life in Grand Guave seemed so simple and relaxed yet so devastating at the same time. I have a simple life but it seems that my time is used "doing" instead of "being" and I want to change that. But it is a process. There are so many things I can get involved in and without realizing it, I am overloaded. Not to the point that I am fretful or unfruitful but that I am unsure of what God wants me to do. Every now and then I have to remind myself that God has given me a ministry to take care of and I can get sidetracked. Knowing His will for your life should keep you on track but ....I need Him more and more everyday to renew my mind as He shows me life is ever changing but He does not change and His purpose for me doesn't change but how I am to accomplish those goals become more clear and I more focused.

He is the vine and I am a branch who He is pruning daily. Ouch! That hurts, but oh' it feels better too. So I am encouraged once again to start writing and hopefully I will be able to stay on task. I will update my blog, Living Interpretations every Monday and this blog every Tuesday. This will help my readers to know that I will have something new for them. Thank you investing your time reading this blog. Bless you!

The story continues: January 14, 2008

After we found our room and bed assignment we went for a walk around the compound. Gretchen DeVoe along with her husband, Bob, founded Lifeline. He was in Honduras and she was heading up the Ladies Mission Trip in Haiti.

We met in the dining hall and the leaders explained what our devotions would be about…The Bad Girls of the Bible…they had a little skit about Jezebel.

The first day in Haiti was coming to an end as we gathered on the roof of the lodge. It was a beautiful sight with the mountains on one side and the ocean in the distance on the other side. A cool breeze floated around us and I felt safe and secure and ready to tackle any job Lifeline would have for me. I settled in with my new friends in Dorm 1 and climbed up to the top bunk. Number 11.

I read over my diary entries….

I am preparing my heart and my things for my mission trip to Haiti next week; we leave January 14.

The Internet is full of information regarding Haiti- the unrest and poverty. The violence is overwhelming if I dwell upon it but I have given my fears to the Lord. I’m not sure why I am going other than I know God wants me to. There are several reasons I can write out but I feel I won’t truly grasp why until I return.

First of all when Wanda came back from her earlier trip, and showed the church pictures of the Lifeline compound in Haiti and told us about her mission trip, I was interested but not necessarily provoked to go. She showed a picture of James Peter, a little boy our church, First Christian Church of Roanoke Rapids, sponsors. They have been for 7 years. Our body of believers purchased him a bed where now all of the children in his family sleep. We are hoping we can buy them another bed soon.

Yes my heart went out to the Haitians but seeing pictures of the military standing guard quickly reminded me of the turmoil Haiti had and still does. I was proud of Wanda for stepping out of her comfy world and into the world of these hurting people. I wanted to hear more, but I still didn’t feel called, that was in 2005. So I was surprised when she announced she was going again and asked the congregation if there were any ladies that would want to join her and others from around the US to go for a ladies mission trip, that my heart pounded and I said, yes. I sent my money to Lifeline very quickly; almost so fast so I wouldn’t think of reversing my decision.

What also helped me see the need for missionaries was the message, Jonathon Daniels presented at our church. He was born in Africa and now lives in Raleigh with his wife and works here to send support and take people to Zimbabwe on mission trips. He told how his life had been changed because of a missionary. I want to bring love and support to the missionaries that began Lifeline 25 years ago in Haiti. I realize my ten day visit may bring smiles while I help pass out gifts of new shoes, food, clothes and toys, but the real missionaries are those that have their lives to these people.

I wanted to go to Haiti is to learn-learn from them; humility, gratefulness, love, kindness, and compassion. To be willing to die to myself and give up my comforts – running water, healthy environment, and basic needs. A lot of their children die before their fifth birthday. What a tragedy.

My prayer is to be changed and to reflect more of Jesus when I return. I feel God is showing me He is my Protector, my Provider. IN HIM I WILL TRUST.

Someone said, “The will of God will not take you where the grace of God will not protect you.” If I have correctly discerned His will-He will protect me. Lord, plan my path, my steps according to your will. Empty me of anything that does not reflect you. Fill me up with Your Holy Spirit. Make me into a vessel You can use. Watch over my children while I’m gone, especially Timmy. Even though he is 16, I’ve always been at home after school. This may be a time for him to grow too. Watch over Ron; I know he’ll be ok ‘cause He’s alive in You!

January 8, 2008

Yesterday we looked over the 12 duffel bags we will be taking to Haiti. Wow! People have really been generous. We have piles of shoes, baby cereal, toys. What we didn’t have, Wanda, Glenda and I purchased. The three of us had so much fun gathering things. We were in the Dollar Store and I thought I’d split open with laughter. Lots of laughs!!

The women going to Haiti are such great ladies who love the Lord so much. Linda, Glenda, Judy, Diane, Wanda and me. I don’t know Judy or Linda real well but I’m looking forward to our being great friends.

Today I started the day with reading a devotional and listening to some music. My heart was overflowing with God’s love. I practiced “Alabaster Box” just in case I do it for a devotional in Haiti. I felt like I was washing Jesus’ feet with my tears as I cried. Diane might act it out. I hope so.

Jasa emailed me and said to look at 1Timothy 5:22; it said to not lay hands on people too quickly. In the Living Bible it refers to pastors – not quite sure what she meant. But she reminded me of voodoo that’s practiced in Haiti. GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN HE THAT IS IN THE WORLD! I know Jasa will be praying for me continually. I also know Susan, Polly, Joyce, Melanie, Nancy, Jen, Kathy, Connie, my family especially mom and dad.

January 10,

We met at Wanda’s tonight for prayer. Each one of us has something going on. Satan wants to get our focus on other things and off of Jesus going to Haiti. We laughed a lot tonight too. Our group has bonded already. It helped me to look at Wanda’s pictures from her last trip. The people have love all over them.

Perfect love cast out all fear. May my love for the Haitians be perfect as to take away all fear. Perfect love~Christ’s love!!

January 11

Gail, my sister-in-law, called me and said in her time with the Lord this morning He told her to call and pray with me over the phone. The verse He gave her for me was Isaiah 41:10 this is also the verse Lisa sent me on December 13th. Gail did not know I was dealing with fear. Isaiah 41:8-10 reads, “But you, O Israel, my servant, Jacob, whom I have chosen, you descendants of Abraham my friend. I told you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said ‘You are my servant.’ I have chosen you and have not rejected you so, do not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will up hold you with my righteous right hand.”

I am calm, cool and collected because God has had several give me His reassurance. In His word I have found peace. He will be with me.

January 12

In my quiet time with the Lord this morning before my feet over touched the floor; as I lay in my bed, I felt the comfort of God for this trip. He told me to focus on what His love is doing in Haiti through His people. I am to bring back the good news of His miraculous intervention and call to arms, His soldiers. The harvest is plenty – the workers are few. God is shining in Haiti due to darkness that surrounds the island. People are being drawn to the Light. God assured me the man at the airport that will be checking our passports and papers is a believer and I am to smile and know that he is good. God has our path covered with angels.

In my devotional by Kay Arthur, “Lord I Give You this Day” I read from today through the 23rd since I won’t be here. There were so many words from His Spirit to mine. His grace is with me. His unmerited favor; His grace covers me. All that He is, is inside of me. I am a vessel carrying His grace to others.

We are letters of Christ being sent to the Haitians. Love letters of the Good News that Jesus loves them and died for them. We are to show His kindness and love to them. Love letters not written on stone but on tablets of human hearts. 2Corinthians 2:14. WOW---the verse on the page of my diary read, “Let love and faithfulness never leave you…write them on the tablet of your heart.” Proverbs 3:3 NIV

God, You are amazing! Yes, I hear You. Your love and faithfulness will never leave me. Your Spirit wrote my love letter form You on my heart forever!

2Corinthians 2:14 “But thanks be to God, who always lead us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of Him.”
Thank You Lord! Let us (me) be the fragrance of life.

January 13, Sunday

At church this morning Mark had the 6 missionary ladies to come forward and the elders led the congregation in prayer for us. In the 2nd service Mark quoted me from Sunday School Class as saying “We are the letters of love from FCC and the people are the envelope and stamps sending us. Without the church we wouldn’t be able to take so many gifts to the Haitians.

I feel “Safe” in the prayers going up on our behalf. I know they will pray for us and I know God hears their prayers. Today I was re-packing again and I checked the American Airlines website again and…I realized I had packed my liquids in a gallon bag not a quart size bag. So I had to rearrange again. I’m so glad I checked it ~ that could have been embarrassing at the airport. Well Lord, I’m ready!

It gave me comfort to read my journal and know that God told me what was going to happen before it happened. I closed my eyes and to my amazement I fell fast asleep!

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